What is your outlook following your separation or break up?
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What is your outlook following your separation or break up?
--fantasm
To be honest he messed my head up so much that I now believe myself to be unloveable and worthless, even after 5 years of therapy!!
As for now, I've had nothing but casual relationships, and would love to be a relationship again, but I think I've gotten used to that "free" feeling- I'm not sure how I'll do with commitment when it's thrust on me again!!!
I ended up spending about a year playing around. for 6-7 months I dated around, tried to meet as many new people as possible, had fun, and ended up having a lot of fun casual/FWB experiences. for about 4-5 months after that, I was totally single and celibate. I moved across the country and just enjoyed travelling and getting used to my new life.
So we broke up and it destroyed me for a long time she was all I could think about and it took me a long time to get over here. After that I didn't date anyone for a long long time.
I started traveling and finally living life for me and only me and not focusing on her and us and the past. I worked thru my issues and guess what?
On the way home, totally unexpected I met the woman of my dreams and the biggest difference is she wants me just as much as I want her. So love CAN happen even if you have been heart broken!
Marriage to my first husband was a big, young, brief mistake.
--fantasm
tbh i have no interest in anything anymore, everything reminds me of her, i still spend every day crying myself to sleep,
i still cannot think of being with anyone else, no other arms make feel like home to me and sex with someone else brings no satisfaction or comfort or pleasure.. (even thou i never got to be phyiscal with my soulmate) it really was a case of when you know you know, i still dont know what happend, tbh
we have not spoken in a week now,
this "pandemic" hasnt helped being in xxxxxxxxxx lock down means even if she wanted to see me she couldnt but i dont think she wants to,
she knows she has hurt me and i think the situation has become some complicated that she might believe she doesnt deserve to be loved by me .. i told her i am still in love with her and i heard her voice break into tears as she she told me not to say it
i have barely left the house or one room ... i dont talk to anyone i have nothing to say